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Soft Rain
Songs from Becky’s own story. Topics include abandonment, betrayal, infant loss, sexual abuse, and seeking God in hard times. The ultimate message is one of healing and hope and God’s presence with us even in the midst of almost unbearable pain.
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Soft Rain
Soft Rain
Words & Music by Ali Dent & Steve Siler
The road out ahead seems forbidding
with shadows and turns through the unknown
The wind is in your face
You feel so out of place
and there’s no way to get back home
You wonder how you’ll survive in this parched, dry land
Then the sky opens up and by mercy’s hand
There you stand
in a soft rain
a soft, soft rain
falling gently all around you
These cleansing drops from heaven
are the Savior’s healing tears
Flowing to wash away the pain
like a soft, soft rain
This isn’t the life you were expecting
Full of heartache and promises betrayed
The picture perfect dream
wasn’t what it seemed
and it all blew up in your face
You wonder how you could ever have trust again
But then hope speaks your name in a gentle wind
and love descends
like a soft rain
a soft, soft rain
falling gently all around you
These cleansing drops from heaven
are the Savior’s healing tears
Flowing to wash away the pain
like a soft, soft rain
These cleansing drops from heaven
are the Savior’s living water
Flowing to wash away the pain
like a soft, soft rain
Flowing to wash away the pain
like a soft, soft rain
© Truth Press/Silerland Music (Administered by The Copyright Company)
Before We Said Hello
Before we Said Hello
Words & Music by Steve Siler
We were so excited
What anticipation
We’d prepared a place for you inside our hearts
Oh, how you were wanted
We had plans and dreams
Then in an instant it all came apart
Like a flower that was crushed before it could bloom
Like a story just begun that ended much too soon
We grieve love interrupted that has no place to go
We said goodbye before we said hello
They say you’re in Heaven
and someday I’ll see you
But that doesn’t fill the ache I’m feeling now
Your life was so special
Such a miracle
Now life goes on but I just don’t know how
Like a flower that was crushed before it could bloom
Like a story just begun that ended much too soon
We grieve the child who’s living in our hearts but not our home
We said goodbye before we said hello
You are my angel and we’ll never be apart
I may not hold in my arms but I’ll still hold you in my heart
Like a flower that was crushed before it could bloom
Like a story just begun that ended much too soon
We grieve the hopes cut short
The memories we’ll never know
Why? Oh why?
Did we have to say goodbye before we said hello
© 2019 Silerland Music (Administered by ClearBox Rights ASCAP)
Why
Why?
Words & Music by Becky Nordquist & Steve Siler
I know my pain makes you feel uncomfortable
You search for words to make it go away
My baby’s gone and my heart is shattered
The last thing I need to hear is a cliché
So don’t tell me you can always have another
That God must’ve needed him more than his mother
Don’t give me tired, empty phrases
They hurt more than they help
Why did God have to take my angel?
I know you think that Jesus is the answer
And yes it’s true I know I need Him now
But He wouldn’t try to talk away my feelings
He’d share the tears my soul is pouring out
So don’t tell me you can always have another
That God must’ve needed her more than her mother
Don’t tell me it was meant to be
When I’m going through this hell
Why did God take away my angel?
Don’t try and fix this
Just sit with me and listen
And if all I have is sorrow
Let it be
Don’t tell me you can always have another
That God must’ve needed him more than his mother
Please think before you speak
I know that you mean well
But you can’t tell me why
No one can tell me why
Why did God have to take away my angel?
© 2020 Ninety Forty Ten Music/ Silerland Music (Administered by The Copyright Company) Silerland Music
When
When?
Words & Music by Steve Siler
I thought you were safe
in a warm, peaceful place
Surrounded by the comfort of my love
Then it suddenly turned
I heard the awful words
I lost you before your time had come
Then the dream became a nightmare
and joy became despair
‘cause you were part of my life
and I was part of your death
and everyone thinks that its over
But I’m not over you yet
When will that day come?
Never my son
There was no one I could tell
who’d understand how I felt
I was isolated in my pain
The world carried on
But part of me was gone
Now I carry this shadow of blame
Why couldn’t I throw you a lifeline?
I feel like I did something wrong
‘cause you were part of my life
and I was part of your death
and everyone thinks that its over
But I’m not over you yet
When my tears run out of water
I’ll be over you daughter
I need friends who will sit with me and listen
I need friends who will sit with me and cry
I need friends who don’t need easy answers
Who are OK with why?
‘cause you were part of my life
I was part of your death
and everyone thinks that its over
But I’m not over you yet
When will that day come?
When will tears run out of water?
When will I see you smile?
In heaven my child
© 2020 Words & Music by Steve Siler / Silerland Music (Administered by ClearBox Rights, LLC)
Heaven's Playground
Heaven’s Playground
Words & Music by Becky Nordquist, Steve Siler, & Tony Wood
Sometimes I imagine
a sea of shining faces
Warm sunshine and blue skies
and children running free
And suddenly I’m smiling
to see you there with Jesus
to know you’re home and happy
means everything to me
That’ll you’ll never know pain
You’ll only know love
You’ll never know tears
in the land of joy above
Where laughter is the only sound
on Heaven’s playground
Sometimes when I miss you
sorrow casts a shadow
I linger with the sadness
and feel the things I feel
But then I remember
in this very moment
You’re living in His presence
and forever you are healed
and…
You’ll never know pain
You’ll only know love
You’ll never know tears
in the land of joy above
Where laughter is the only sound
on Heaven’s playground
The only way these arms could let you go
is to know whose arms would take you in
The one who loved you first will hold you
‘til I hold you again
You’ll never know pain
You’ll only know love
You’ll never know tears
in the land of joy above
Where laughter is the only sound
Where laughter is the only sound
on Heaven’s playground
© 2019 Ninety Forty Ten Music/ Silerland Music (Administered by The Copyright Company) / Curb Wordspring Music LLC / Tony Wood Songs (SESAC)
You're with Me
You’re With Me
Words & Music by Becky Nordquist, Steve Siler, & David Baroni
I can’t see you
I don’t feel you
I can’t hear you anymore
Are you listening?
Do you see my tears?
My heart is shattered on the floor
I’ve always believed you’d never leave my side
Is it true?
Can I trust through the darkest night?
You’re with me
You’re for me
You love me and you’ll never let me go
Hope was lost
Dreams were dead
As if my prayers had been ignored
But you heard me
and you lifted me
and now my faith has been reborn
I know that you never left my side
and I cling to this truth deep in my soul tonight
You’re with me
You’re for me
You love me and you’ll never let me go
You go before me
You are behind me
Your love surrounds me
You’re always near
You are above me
You are beside me
Jesus who saves me
I will not fear
’cause you didn’t bring me
here to leave me
Even in silence
You hold me here
Yes, You’re with me
You’re for me
You love me and you’ll never let me go
Yes, You’re with me
You’re for me
You love me and you’ll never let me go
© 2021 Kingdomsongs, Inc. / Ninety Forty Ten Music / Silerland Music (Administered by ClearBox Rights) ASCAP
Innocent Child
Innocent Child
Words & Music by Steve Siler
Precious one
I know you’ve been sad for so long
Don’t blame yourself
You didn’t do anything wrong
You only wanted attention
Every child needs the same
You are as pure as a flower
In the cleansing rain
It’s not your fault
You are an innocent child
It’s not your fault
You are an innocent child
Precious one
I know the nightmares you’ve had
Don’t be ashamed
You didn’t do anything bad
You only wanted approval
Every child needs love
You are a perfect creation
of the Holy One
It’s not your fault
You are an innocent child
It’s not your fault
You are an innocent child
© Silerland Music (Administered by Clearbox Rights) ASCAP
More than a Survivor
More than a Survivor
Words & Music by Steve Siler
You have lived through something
That no one should have to face
You have shown the kind of courage
That defies the commonplace
Now a future lies before you
So keep holding on to hope
Walking in the light
It’s gonna be alright
You are brave
You are strong
Hold your head up higher
Lift your voice
Sing your song
You are a survivor
You are making a beginning
Where there might have been an end
You have been to hell and back
and learned to trust again
They call you a survivor
But somehow you know there’s more
Hang on to that truth
Your sky is turning blue
You are brave
You are strong
Hold your head up higher
Lift your voice
Sing your song
You are a survivor
Not just a survivor, but a champion
Not just a survivor, but free
Not just a survivor, but thriving
Ready for tomorrow
and whatever will be
You are brave
You are strong
Hold your head up higher
Lift your voice
Sing your song
You are more than a survivor
© Silerland Music (administered by ClearBox Rights, LLC)
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Becky Nordquist
Becky Nordquist
Instrument / Role:
Vocalist, Songwriter, Author
Albums / Songs Involved With:
Before We Said Hello (Singer, Devotional book author) Heaven's Playground (Singer, songwriter)
Website:
https://www.beckynordquist.com/Danny Mitchell
Danny Mitchell
Instrument / Role:
Copyist, Backing Vocals
Albums / Songs Involved With:
BEFORE WE SAID HELLO Background Vocals DIGNITY Copyist - Dignity, We've Never Done This Dance Before, You Should Hear Him Sing, I'm Gonna Lose You MERCY GREAT ENOUGH Copyist - I Wasn't There, Hope Will Rise Again, Stain Upon My Heart, We Forgive You
Website:
https://dannymitchellmusic.com/Daphne Delva Smith
Daphne Delva Smith
Instrument / Role:
Choir Member & Lead vocalist
Albums / Songs Involved With:
AFTER THE STORM Choir / Binder of the Broken & City of Hope Choir / CHILD OF GOD Choir / DAYS OF HOPE DIGNITY Choir / Precious Lord Take My Hand MERCY GREAT ENOUGH Lead Vocal / Listen with Love MORE THAN A SURVIVOR Choir WHAT HOPE SAYS Choir / Hope Says There's A Way
David Angell
David Angell
Instrument / Role:
Violin
Albums / Songs Involved With:
AFTER THE STORM Trust Jesus, Binder of the Broken CHAOS OF THE HEART Chaos of the Heart DAYS OF HOPE DIGNITY Dignity, We've Never Done This Dance Before, You Should Hear Him Sing, I'm Gonna Lose You, Twenty Three DRINK DEEP After the Crowds are Gone, Differently, As Good as Goodbye Gets, Death Has Been Conquered INNOCENT CHILD (Becky Nordquist) MERCY GREAT ENOUGH Stain Upon My Heart, I Wasn't There, Hope Will Rise Again, We Forgive You MORE THAN A SURVIVOR SOFT RAIN SOMEBODY’S DAUGHTER Traitor, Somebody's Daughter, I Commit My Eyes TELL ME WHAT YOU SEE The Cost, Beautiful Jesus, Tell Me What You See, To Be Free TWENTY THREE Twenty Three WHOLE IN THE SIGHT OF GOD Whole in the Sight of God
David Davidson
David Davidson
Instrument / Role:
Violin
Albums / Songs Involved With:
AFTER THE STORM Violin -Trust Jesus, Binder of the Broken BEFORE WE SAID HELLO Violin CHAOS OF THE HEART (Chaos of the Heart ) DAYS OF HOPE DIGNITY Dignity, We've Never Done This Dance Before, You Should Hear Him Sing, I'm Gonna Lose You, Twenty Three DRINK DEEP After the Crowds are Gone, Differently, As Good as Goodbye Gets, Death Has Been Conquered INNOCENT CHILD (Becky Nordquist) MERCY GREAT ENOUGH I Wasn't There, Hope Will Rise Again, Stain Upon My Heart, We Forgive You MORE BEAUTIFUL Wildest Ride on Earth MORE THAN A SURVIVOR SOFT RAIN SOMEBODY’S DAUGHTER Traitor, Somebody's Daughter, I Commit My Eyes TELL ME WHAT YOU SEE The Cost, Beautiful Jesus, Tell Me What You See, To Be Free TWENTY THREE Twenty Three WHOLE IN THE SIGHT OF GOD Whole in the Sight of God
Website:
http://davidsviolin.com/Gordon Mote
Gordon Mote
Instrument / Role:
Piano, B-3 Organ
Albums / Songs Involved With:
Declaration of Interdependence Soft Rain When? Why?
Website:
http://www.gordonmote.com/Kent Hooper
Kent Hooper
Instrument / Role:
Co-Producer, Engineer, Mixing, Mastering, Arranging, and Keyboards
Albums / Songs Involved With:
AFTER THE STORM Engineer spoken pieces, Engineering, mixing, and mastering THE APOLOGY Engineering, mixing, and mastering BEFORE WE SAID HELLO Engineering, mixing, and mastering BROKEN TO BLESS Engineering, mixing, and mastering CELEBRATION TABLE Engineering, mixing, and mastering CHAOS OF THE HEART Programming - Chaos of the Heart / Piano - Interludes / Mixing & Mastering - Chaos of the Heart, Keep Breathing, & How Could You / Producer - Every Single Tear - used Courtesy of Spring Hill Music Group, Inc. CHILD OF GOD Engineering, mixing, and mastering CROOKED ROAD Engineering, mixing, and mastering DAYS OF HOPE Engineering, mixing, and mastering DIGNITY Co-Producer, engineering, mixing, and mastering - All tracks / Piano - Do You Know I Love You, Precious Lord Take My Hand DRINK DEEP Co-Producer, engineering, mixing, and mastering - All tracks FIFTY YEARS FROM NOW Programming, piano, & mixing - I Don't Know You Anymore / Love as I Have Been Loved - programming / Engineer for spoken pieces HEROES UNSUNG Engineer for spoken pieces IT DOESN’T FEEL LIKE CHRISTMAS THIS YEAR Engineering, mixing, and mastering MERCY GREAT ENOUGH Co-Producer, arranging, engineering, mixing, and mastering - All tracks MORE BEAUTIFUL Programming, Keyboards, Engineer, mixing - Wildest Ride on Earth, Keyboards & Engineer - Interlude for More Beautiful on Guitar, Engineer - Affirmation MORE THAN A SURVIVOR Co-Producer, engineering, mixing, and mastering ROCK BOTTOM SOON Vocal Engineer & Mix SOMEBODY’S DAUGHTER Songwriter & programming - All of Me / Keyboards, mixing - Somebody's Daughter / Programming, mixing - Into the Light/ Keyboards, mixing - Every Man's Battle / Engineer & mixing - Is it Me? / I Commit My Eyes / Traitor TELL ME WHAT YOU SEE Engineered, mixed, and mastered all tracks / Also Wurlitzer - Swept Away / Keyboards - Tell Me What You See, To Be Free, In the Image of God / Guitar - Piece Me Together / Programming & Keyboards - You Love Me TWENTY THREE Producer UNDER MY SKIN Mix and mastering WHOLE IN THE SIGHT OF GOD Engineer & MIx
Website:
http://houseofbig.com/Mark Baldwin
Mark Baldwin
Instrument / Role:
Guitar
Albums / Songs Involved With:
BEFORE WE SAID HELLO Guitar BROKEN TO BLESS Guitar / Innocent Child, Walking Each Other Home, Child of Mine CELEBRATION TABLE Guitar / No Power Over Me, Rock Bottom Soon, Say Anything CHAOS OF THE HEART Guitar / Keep Breathing, How Could You DIGNITY Guitar / Love Will Have to Do It, In the Middle of the Mess, Do You Know How I Love You, When I Couldn't Do It By Myself DRINK DEEP Every Single Tear, Twenty Three, Today, Death Has Been Conquered / Also - speaker on No! IT DOESN’T FEEL LIKE CHRISTMAS THIS YEAR Guitar MERCY GREAT ENOUGH Guitar / Broken into Beautiful, I Lay it Down Listen with Love SOMEBODY’S DAUGHTER Guitar / Somebody's Daughter TELL ME WHAT YOU SEE Guitar / In the Image of God, No One Can Love Me like You Do, You Love Me SOFT RAIN Guitar / You're with Me
Website:
https://markbaldwinguitar.com/Matt Pierson
Matt Pierson
Instrument / Role:
Bass
Albums / Songs Involved With:
BEFORE WE SAID HELLO Heaven's Playground DIGNITY Precious Lord Take My Hand MORE BEAUTIFUL What Now (Mercy Great Enough) Wildest Ride on Earth SOMEBODY’S DAUGHTER All of Me, Is it Me?, I Commit My Eyes, Every Man's Battle TELL ME WHAT YOU SEE The Cost, Swept Away, Tell Me What You See, Just the Way that I Am, No One Can Love Me Like You Do
Phillip Keveren
Phillip Keveren
Instrument / Role:
String Arrangement & Conductor
Albums / Songs Involved With:
AFTER THE STORM Trust Jesus, Binder of the Broken BEFORE WE SAID HELLO Before We Said Hello, Heaven's Playground DAYS OF HOPE DIGNITY Dignity, Twenty Three / also String arrangement, Conductor, & Piano - We've Never Done This Dance Before, You Should Hear Him Sing, I'm Gonna Lose You DRINK DEEP After the Crowds are Gone, Differently, As Good as Goodbye Gets, Death Has Been Conquered CHAOS OF THE HEART Chaos of the Heart IT DOESN’T FEEL LIKE CHRISTMAS THIS YEAR MERCY GREAT ENOUGH Stain Upon My I Wasn't There, Heart, Hope Will Rise Again, We Forgive You MORE THAN A SURVIVOR SOMEBODY’S DAUGHTER Traitor, Somebody's Daughter, I Commit My Eyes TELL ME WHAT YOU SEE The Cost, Beautiful Jesus, Tell Me What You See, To Be Free / also / Piano - No One Can Love Me like You Do TWENTY THREE Twenty Three WHOLE IN THE SIGHT OF GOD Piano, String arranger, conductor - Whole in the Sight of God / Writer, Piano, Programming - Reflection on Whole in the Sight of God
Website:
https://phillipkeveren.com/Randy Poole
Randy Poole
Instrument / Role:
Tracking Engineer
Albums / Songs Involved With:
AFTER THE STORM Carry Me MERCY GREAT ENOUGH Hidden Things, The Days Still Yet to Come, Hope Will Rise Again, You'll Never Call Me Daddy SOMEBODY’S DAUGHTER All of Me / String Tracking Engineer - Traitor, Somebody's Daughter, I Commit My Eyes WHOLE IN THE SIGHT OF GOD Whole in the Sight of God
Scott Williamson
Scott Williamson
Instrument / Role:
Drums
Albums / Songs Involved With:
BREAKTHROUGH CHILD OF GOD DRINK DEEP No!, Don't Feel Much like Prayer Today, Drink Deep, After the Crowds are Gone, No Such Thing as Normal, Differently, Every Single Tear, Good, Ambush, As Good as Goodbye Gets, Today, Gone Ahead, Death Has Been Conquered (Drink Deep) DIGNITY Dignity, Returning the Favor, Love Will Have to Do It, In the Middle of the Mess HEAVEN'S PLAYGROUND IT DOESN’T FEEL LIKE CHRISTMAS THIS YEAR MERCY GREAT ENOUGH Hidden Things, The Days Still Yet to Come, Hope Will Rise Again, You'll Never Call Me Daddy (Mercy Great Enough) SOMEBODY’S DAUGHTER All of Me WALKING WITHOUT SKIN WE'RE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER
Steve Siler
Steve Siler
Instrument / Role:
Founder, Director, & Producer / Songwriter / Keys / Vocalist
Albums / Songs Involved With:
AFTER THE STORM Songwriter / Where is the Ground, Not too Far From Here, Twenty Three BEFORE WE SAID HELLO Songwriter BROKEN TO BLESS Songwriter & Vocals / Not too Far from Here, Innocent Child, Broken to Bless, Renee is Fourteen, Child of Mine, Beatitudes, Listening, Wounded Angel, Nothing is in Vain, Walking Each Other Home, The Apology CELEBRATION TABLE Songwriter & Vocals / Celebration Table, Come Meet Me Here, In Christ, I've Got This, No Power Over Me, Rock Bottom Soon, Say Anything, Shame Died These Things, A Voiceless Cry, You are Not Alone CHAOS OF THE HEART Songwriter / Chaos of the Heart, How Could You, Every Single Tear, Keep Breathing, Twenty Three CHILD OF GOD Songwriter CROOKED ROAD Songwriter DAYS OF HOPE Songwriter DIGNITY Songwriter / Dignity, We've Never Done This Dance Before, Returning the Favor, Love Will Have to Do It, In the Middle of the Mess, Twenty Three, You Should Hear Him Sing, Do You Know I Love You, Precious Lord Take My Hand, I'm Gonna Lose You DRINK DEEP No!, Don't Feel Much like Prayer Today, Drink Deep, After the Crowds are Gone, No Such Thing as Normal, Differently, Every Single Tear, Good, Twenty Three, Ambush, Today, Gone Ahead, Death Has Been Conquered FIFTY YEARS FROM NOW Songwriter / Fifty Years From Now, I Don't Know You Anymore, Love as I Have Been Loved, Before God, What God Has Joined Together GOD CAN USE A BROKEN HEART Songwriter HEROES UNSUNG Songwriter & Piano IN ALL THINGS Songwriter I PROMISE TO BE WITH YOU TODAY Songwriter IT DOESN’T FEEL LIKE CHRISTMAS THIS YEAR Songwriter LIFE OF FAITH Songwriter LOOK INTO MY EYES Songwriter MERCY GREAT ENOUGH Songwriter / The Days Still Yet to Come, Hope Will Rise Again, I Lay it Down, I Wasn't There, Listen with Love, Stain Upon My Heart, We Forgive You, What Now?, You'll Never Call Me Daddy, Your Life Has Made a Difference MORE BEAUTIFUL Songwriter / More Beautiful, Wildest Ride on Earth MORE THAN A SURVIVOR Songwriter MUSIC FOR THE LITLE SOUL Songwriter THE NEXT RIGHT THING Songwriter NO POWER OVER ME Songwriter & Vocalist ROCK BOTTOM SOON Songwriter & Vocalist SET SAIL Songwriter SOMEBODY’S DAUGHTER Songwriter / Traitor, Somebody's Daughter, All of Me, Into the Light, Is It Me?, I Commit My Eyes, Every Man's Battle /also / Keyboards - Is It Me? TELL ME WHAT YOU SEE Songwriter / The Cost, You Love Me, In the image of God, Just the Way that I Am, No One Can Love Me like You Do TWENTY THREE Songwriter UNDER MY SKIN Songwriter WHERE IS MY FAITH Songwriter WHOLE IN THE SIGHT OF GOD Songwriter / Whole in the Sight of God WRONG CONVERSATIONS Songwriter
Tony Wood
Tony Wood
Instrument / Role:
Songwriter
Albums / Songs Involved With:
AFTER THE STORM Twenty Three BROKEN TO BLESS Beatitudes CHAOS OF THE HEART Twenty Three DIGNITY In the Middle of the Mess, Twenty Three DRINK DEEP No!, Don't Feel Much like Prayer Today, Drink Deep, After the Crowds are Gone, No Such Thing as Normal, Differently, Good, Twenty Three, Ambush, As Good as Goodbye Gets, Today, Gone Ahead FIFTY YEARS FROM NOW I Don't Know You Anymore IN ALL THNGS I PROMISE TO BE WITH YOU TODAY LIFE OF FAITH Songwriter LOOK INTO MY EYES Songwriter SET SAIL Songwriter TWENTY THREE Twenty Three WHERE IS MY FAITH WRONG CONVERSATIONS