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It Doesn’t Feel like Christmas This Year

It Doesn’t Feel like Christmas This Year
Words & Music by Steve Siler
The houses and shops are all greening
There’s baking and wrapping to do
Outside they’re caroling white Christmas
But in my heart it’s blue
December’s the time for snowfall
But all that’s falling is my tears
I wish this holiday would just go away
Cause it doesn’t feel like Christmas this yearCandles and Yule lights are twinkling
Everyone’s merry and bright
But me, I’ve got a different reason
To have a silent night
People are full of the spirit
I can’t seem to get there from here
Wish I could just pretend
That it’s spring again
Cause it doesn’t feel like Christmas this yearThe calendar says to be of good cheer
To be joyful, to laugh, and sing
But in the midst of celebration
What do I do with all of this pain?December’s the time for snowfall
But all that’s falling is my tears
I wish this holiday would just go away
Cause it doesn’t feel like Christmas this year
Wish I could just pretend
That it’s spring again
Cause it doesn’t feel like Christmas this year
© Silerland Music (Administered by Clearbox Rights, LLC) ASCAP

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The song is beautiful and heart wrenching.  Sometimes you just don’t want to celebrate when there is so much pain.

Randi, Northridge, CA

You’ve done a great job of capturing and relating to the emotions of the person who is struggling during the Christmas season.  It’s OK to express how you’re feeling.

Ray, Chicago, IL

I love It Doesn’t Feel like Christmas This Year.  The style of the music reflects a sad stroll on a cold, rainy, and lonely Christmas night. Beautiful.

Lisa, Athens, TN

The holidays are such a difficult season for the brokenhearted.  Putting words to that difficulty helps us take a step toward healing.  I have to say you’ve hit the mark both in word and music.  Thank you for the work you are doing to help people struggling with pain and loss.

Linda Paine, Overcoming Trauma

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Chris Kent

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Chris Kent

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Bass

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CHILD OF GOD DIGNITY Dignity, Returning the Favor, Love Will Have to Do It, In the Middle of the Mess IT DOESN’T FEEL LIKE CHRISTMAS THIS YEAR TELL ME WHAT YOU SEE To Be Free, You Love Me, In the Image of God

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Kent Hooper

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Kent Hooper

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Co-Producer, Engineer, Mixing, Mastering, Arranging, and Keyboards

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AFTER THE STORM Engineer spoken pieces, Engineering, mixing, and mastering THE APOLOGY Engineering, mixing, and mastering BEFORE WE SAID HELLO Engineering, mixing, and mastering BROKEN TO BLESS Engineering, mixing, and mastering CELEBRATION TABLE Engineering, mixing, and mastering CHAOS OF THE HEART Programming - Chaos of the Heart / Piano - Interludes / Mixing & Mastering - Chaos of the Heart, Keep Breathing, & How Could You / Producer - Every Single Tear - used Courtesy of Spring Hill Music Group, Inc. CHILD OF GOD Engineering, mixing, and mastering CROOKED ROAD Engineering, mixing, and mastering DAYS OF HOPE Engineering, mixing, and mastering DIGNITY Co-Producer, engineering, mixing, and mastering - All tracks / Piano - Do You Know I Love You, Precious Lord Take My Hand DRINK DEEP Co-Producer, engineering, mixing, and mastering - All tracks FIFTY YEARS FROM NOW Programming, piano, & mixing - I Don't Know You Anymore / Love as I Have Been Loved - programming / Engineer for spoken pieces HEROES UNSUNG Engineer for spoken pieces IT DOESN’T FEEL LIKE CHRISTMAS THIS YEAR Engineering, mixing, and mastering MERCY GREAT ENOUGH Co-Producer, arranging, engineering, mixing, and mastering - All tracks MORE BEAUTIFUL Programming, Keyboards, Engineer, mixing - Wildest Ride on Earth, Keyboards & Engineer - Interlude for More Beautiful on Guitar, Engineer - Affirmation MORE THAN A SURVIVOR Co-Producer, engineering, mixing, and mastering ROCK BOTTOM SOON Vocal Engineer & Mix SOMEBODY’S DAUGHTER Songwriter & programming - All of Me / Keyboards, mixing - Somebody's Daughter / Programming, mixing - Into the Light/ Keyboards, mixing - Every Man's Battle / Engineer & mixing - Is it Me? / I Commit My Eyes / Traitor TELL ME WHAT YOU SEE Engineered, mixed, and mastered all tracks / Also Wurlitzer - Swept Away / Keyboards - Tell Me What You See, To Be Free, In the Image of God / Guitar - Piece Me Together / Programming & Keyboards - You Love Me TWENTY THREE Producer UNDER MY SKIN Mix and mastering WHOLE IN THE SIGHT OF GOD Engineer & MIx

Mark Baldwin

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Mark Baldwin

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Guitar

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BEFORE WE SAID HELLO Guitar BROKEN TO BLESS Guitar / Innocent Child, Walking Each Other Home, Child of Mine CELEBRATION TABLE Guitar / No Power Over Me, Rock Bottom Soon, Say Anything CHAOS OF THE HEART Guitar / Keep Breathing, How Could You DIGNITY Guitar / Love Will Have to Do It, In the Middle of the Mess, Do You Know How I Love You, When I Couldn't Do It By Myself DRINK DEEP Every Single Tear, Twenty Three, Today, Death Has Been Conquered / Also - speaker on No! IT DOESN’T FEEL LIKE CHRISTMAS THIS YEAR Guitar MERCY GREAT ENOUGH Guitar / Broken into Beautiful, I Lay it Down Listen with Love SOMEBODY’S DAUGHTER Guitar / Somebody's Daughter TELL ME WHAT YOU SEE Guitar / In the Image of God, No One Can Love Me like You Do, You Love Me SOFT RAIN Guitar / You're with Me

Phillip Keveren

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Phillip Keveren

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String Arrangement & Conductor

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AFTER THE STORM Trust Jesus, Binder of the Broken BEFORE WE SAID HELLO Before We Said Hello, Heaven's Playground DAYS OF HOPE DIGNITY Dignity, Twenty Three / also String arrangement, Conductor, & Piano - We've Never Done This Dance Before, You Should Hear Him Sing, I'm Gonna Lose You DRINK DEEP After the Crowds are Gone, Differently, As Good as Goodbye Gets, Death Has Been Conquered CHAOS OF THE HEART Chaos of the Heart IT DOESN’T FEEL LIKE CHRISTMAS THIS YEAR MERCY GREAT ENOUGH Stain Upon My I Wasn't There, Heart, Hope Will Rise Again, We Forgive You MORE THAN A SURVIVOR SOMEBODY’S DAUGHTER Traitor, Somebody's Daughter, I Commit My Eyes TELL ME WHAT YOU SEE The Cost, Beautiful Jesus, Tell Me What You See, To Be Free / also / Piano - No One Can Love Me like You Do TWENTY THREE Twenty Three WHOLE IN THE SIGHT OF GOD Piano, String arranger, conductor - Whole in the Sight of God / Writer, Piano, Programming - Reflection on Whole in the Sight of God

Scott Krippayne

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Scott Krippayne

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Lead Vocal

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AFTER THE STORM Songwriter, Vocal - Twenty Three / Songwriter, Lead & Backing Vocals - Carry Me BROKEN TO BLESS Songwriter - Beatitudes CHAOS OF THE HEART Vocal - Chaos of the Heart / Backing Vocal - How Could You / Songwriter, Lead Vocal, & Piano - Every Single Tear / Songwriter - Keep Breathing / Songwriter & Vocal - Twenty Three DIGNITY Songwriter & Lead Vocal - Precious Lord Take My Hand / Songwriter & Vocal - Twenty Three DRINK DEEP Songwriter & Vocals - No!, Don't Feel Much like Prayer Today, Differently, , Good, Ambush, Today, Gone Ahead / Songwriter, Vocal, & Piano - No Such Thing as Normal / Songwriter - Drink Deep, After the Crowds are Gone, Every Single Tear, Twenty Three / Vocal - Death Has Been Conquered FIFTY YEARS FROM NOW Vocal / I Don't Know You Anymore / Songwriter, lead vocal & piano - Love as I Have Been Loved GOD CAN USE A BROKEN HEART Songwriter & Vocalist IN ALL THINGS Songwriter, Vocalist, Piano I PROMISE TO BE WITH YOU TODAY Songwriter, Vocalist, Piano IT DOESN’T FEEL LIKE CHRISTMAS THIS YEAR Vocalist LIFE OF FAITH Writer, musician, & vocalist LOOK INTO MY EYES Songwriter, Vocalist, Piano MERCY GREAT ENOUGH Songwriter, Piano, & Lead vocal - I Wasn't There / Backing vocals - You'll Never Call Me Daddy MORE BEAUTIFUL Vocal / More Beautiful SET SAIL Songwriter, piano, programming, and vocal SOMEBODY'S DAUGHTER Songwriter, Lead Vocal, Backing Vocals - All of Me TELL ME WHAT YOU SEE Songwriter - You Love Me / Backing Vocals - Just the Way that I Am TWENTY THREE Songwriter & Vocal - Twenty Three WHERE IS MY FAITH Songwriter, Vocalist, Piano WHOLE IN THE SIGHT OF GOD Vocal / Whole in the Sight of God WRONG CONVERSATIONS Songwriter, Vocalist, Piano

Scott Williamson

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Scott Williamson

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Drums

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BREAKTHROUGH CHILD OF GOD DRINK DEEP No!, Don't Feel Much like Prayer Today, Drink Deep, After the Crowds are Gone, No Such Thing as Normal, Differently, Every Single Tear, Good, Ambush, As Good as Goodbye Gets, Today, Gone Ahead, Death Has Been Conquered (Drink Deep) DIGNITY Dignity, Returning the Favor, Love Will Have to Do It, In the Middle of the Mess HEAVEN'S PLAYGROUND IT DOESN’T FEEL LIKE CHRISTMAS THIS YEAR MERCY GREAT ENOUGH Hidden Things, The Days Still Yet to Come, Hope Will Rise Again, You'll Never Call Me Daddy (Mercy Great Enough) SOMEBODY’S DAUGHTER All of Me WALKING WITHOUT SKIN WE'RE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER

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Steve Siler

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Steve Siler

Instrument / Role:

Founder, Director, & Producer / Songwriter / Keys / Vocalist

Albums / Songs Involved With:

AFTER THE STORM Songwriter / Where is the Ground, Not too Far From Here, Twenty Three BEFORE WE SAID HELLO Songwriter BROKEN TO BLESS Songwriter & Vocals / Not too Far from Here, Innocent Child, Broken to Bless, Renee is Fourteen, Child of Mine, Beatitudes, Listening, Wounded Angel, Nothing is in Vain, Walking Each Other Home, The Apology CELEBRATION TABLE Songwriter & Vocals / Celebration Table, Come Meet Me Here, In Christ, I've Got This, No Power Over Me, Rock Bottom Soon, Say Anything, Shame Died These Things, A Voiceless Cry, You are Not Alone CHAOS OF THE HEART Songwriter / Chaos of the Heart, How Could You, Every Single Tear, Keep Breathing, Twenty Three CHILD OF GOD Songwriter CROOKED ROAD Songwriter DAYS OF HOPE Songwriter DIGNITY Songwriter / Dignity, We've Never Done This Dance Before, Returning the Favor, Love Will Have to Do It, In the Middle of the Mess, Twenty Three, You Should Hear Him Sing, Do You Know I Love You, Precious Lord Take My Hand, I'm Gonna Lose You DRINK DEEP No!, Don't Feel Much like Prayer Today, Drink Deep, After the Crowds are Gone, No Such Thing as Normal, Differently, Every Single Tear, Good, Twenty Three, Ambush, Today, Gone Ahead, Death Has Been Conquered FIFTY YEARS FROM NOW Songwriter / Fifty Years From Now, I Don't Know You Anymore, Love as I Have Been Loved, Before God, What God Has Joined Together GOD CAN USE A BROKEN HEART Songwriter HEROES UNSUNG Songwriter & Piano IN ALL THINGS Songwriter I PROMISE TO BE WITH YOU TODAY Songwriter IT DOESN’T FEEL LIKE CHRISTMAS THIS YEAR Songwriter LIFE OF FAITH Songwriter LOOK INTO MY EYES Songwriter MERCY GREAT ENOUGH Songwriter / The Days Still Yet to Come, Hope Will Rise Again, I Lay it Down, I Wasn't There, Listen with Love, Stain Upon My Heart, We Forgive You, What Now?, You'll Never Call Me Daddy, Your Life Has Made a Difference MORE BEAUTIFUL Songwriter / More Beautiful, Wildest Ride on Earth MORE THAN A SURVIVOR Songwriter MUSIC FOR THE LITLE SOUL Songwriter THE NEXT RIGHT THING Songwriter NO POWER OVER ME Songwriter & Vocalist ROCK BOTTOM SOON Songwriter & Vocalist SET SAIL Songwriter SOMEBODY’S DAUGHTER Songwriter / Traitor, Somebody's Daughter, All of Me, Into the Light, Is It Me?, I Commit My Eyes, Every Man's Battle /also / Keyboards - Is It Me? TELL ME WHAT YOU SEE Songwriter / The Cost, You Love Me, In the image of God, Just the Way that I Am, No One Can Love Me like You Do TWENTY THREE Songwriter UNDER MY SKIN Songwriter WHERE IS MY FAITH Songwriter WHOLE IN THE SIGHT OF GOD Songwriter / Whole in the Sight of God WRONG CONVERSATIONS Songwriter

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Tim Akers

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Tim Akers

Instrument / Role:

B3 Organ / Piano

Albums / Songs Involved With:

BINDER OF THE BROKEN B3 Organ CHILD OF GOD Piano DIGNITY Piano, B-3 Organ, & Keyboards - Dignity, Returning the Favor, Love Will Have to Do It DRINK DEEP B3 Organ - Gone Ahead, Death Has Been Conquered IT DOESN’T FEEL LIKE CHRISTMAS THIS YEAR Piano MERCY GREAT ENOUGH B3 organ - Your Life Has Made a Difference MORE THAN A SURVIVOR B3 organ SAVE A CHILD B3 organ SOMEBODY’S DAUGHTER B3 organ - I Commit My Eyes, Every Man's Battle

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