Everyday millions of people wake up to the difficult reality of life impacted by debilitating, sometimes incurable, disease and/or physical disability. For many such a life path can raise serious questions surrounding faith and one's relationship with God.
Several members of the Music for the Soul family are walking upon this path daily.
I believe God desires a deep and truth-filled relationship with us. Such a God is big enough to deal with our honest anger and frustration. Such a God invites, and does not cower from, our most challenging questions. Those are the kind of questions you find in the lyric to Crooked Road.
Earlier this year I had the opportunity of learning the story of Christopher Bailey, a fourteen year old from Birmingham, Alabama living with juvenile Diabetes. He shared with me some of his honest thoughts about being a young man of faith living daily with the challenges of a devastating disease.
The song Crooked Road emerged from that story.
A loving God would not tell us the truth will set us free and then ask us to be silent about our own struggles. In Psalm 55 we are encouraged to cast our burden on the Lord and he will sustain us. (RSV).
I pray this song helps you or someone you love to find that place of real hope that begins with sharing the deepest cry of our hearts with our Creator.
~Steve Siler
Words & Music by Christopher Bailey & Steve Siler
© 2010 Silerland Music / Ninety Forty Ten Music
(Administered by the Copyright Company)
It's hard feeling different from everybody else
Oh how I wish for just one day I could be normal
But there is no escaping and no cure to make me well
And every single day is such a struggle
I cannot run
I cannot hide
What can I do?
This is my life
If you love me God
Why did you let this happen?
Are you in this place
I could not have imagined?
I'm crying out for peace
And the patience that comes from you alone
Lord, give me faith to walk this crooked road
I feel like a mirror that's been shattered by a rock
How will I ever put the pieces back together?
It's like I'm in an earthquake and the shaking just won't stop
And nothing I can do will make it better
There's so much pain
It's such a grind
It's just not fair
It's just not right
If you love me God
Why did you let this happen?
Are you in this place
I could not have imagined?
I'm crying out for peace
And the patience that comes from you alone
Lord, give me faith to walk this crooked road
It's as if there is race
And there's no way I can win
'Cause I'm running with my shoelaces tied
Every time I get up
I get knocked back down
How will I ever reach the finish line?
Sometimes it feels
like you're not there
Lord do you see?
Lord do you care?
If you love me God
Why did you let this happen?
Are you in this place
I could not have imagined?
I'm crying out for peace
And the patience that comes from you alone
Lord, give me faith to walk this crooked road
