Lyrics - Pornography Addiction

IS IT ME?
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Female Vocal
Words & Music by John Mandeville & Steve Siler

I can't breathe
This can't be happening to me
Was everything we had just a lie?
I believed while you deceived me
Faithful while my love was being violated
Nothing is the same
Nothing to hold on to
Where's the man I knew a day ago?

Is it me?
What did I do?
Am I not enough for you?
Is it me?
Was I wrong?
I believed our love was strong
Is it me?

I feel sick
Has it really come to this?
Didn't what we have mean anything?
You lied to me while you lay with me
What am I supposed to do with all the dreams you shattered?

How could you do this to me?! I can tell you're sorry
Don't touch me! I need you to hold me
Who's going to comfort me now? Who's going to comfort me now?
You disgust me I know this isn't like you
It's over between us I hope you still love me
I hate you! I hate that I need you! Only God can save us
Only God can save us

Is it me?

© 2005 Silerland Music (Administered by the Copyright Company) ASCAP / Lifestyle of Worship BMI

INTO THE LIGHT
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Words & Music by Steve Siler & John Mandeville

The walls are crashing down
My illusion has been shattered
Those thoughts that held me captive in my skin
I've let the secrets out
I've felt the demons scatter
Maybe now the healing can begin

In to the light
Into the place where nothing's hidden
Into the light
Into the hope that I'm forgiven
Climbing from the shadows toward the way that leads to life
Out of the shame
Out of the chains
Into the light

There's going to be a cost
Habits that need breaking
I know the path I'm on will change my life
Oh God, I need you so much
Without you I won't make it
Lord, take the veil of darkness from my eyes

CHORUS

The unrelenting guilt that I've belonged to
Is finally letting go from deep within
Through the brokenness and tears
I've found its love I've feared
Yet love can take my heart from where it's been

CHORUS

© 2005 Silerland Music (Administered by the Copyright Company) ASCAP / Lifestyle of Worship BMI

I COMMIT MY EYES
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Words & Music by John Mandeville & Steve Siler

There's a lingerie ad writhing on TV
And a bikini billboard interrupting me
There's a hundred ways to stumble on the cable
And alluring models on every coffee table
Sometimes it seems like there's no escape
But it's a choice, so starting here today

I commit my eyes
I commit my eyes
I'm drawing a line in the sand
I will look away
Turn my eyes in faith
And redefine what it means to be a man
Trusting what you have for me is so much more
I commit my eyes to you Lord

Now I'm building up a line of defenses
Cause I know this fight is going to be relentless
There is no room for making comprises
With the voices that go back and forth inside us
The so called pleasure only leads to pain
True passion isn't poison to my brain, so

CHORUS

Unless I starve my eyes from sexual sin
I'll never see what's truly beautiful again

CHORUS

I commit my eyes to you Lord

© 2005 Silerland Music (Administered by the Copyright Company) ASCAP / Lifestyle of Worship BMI

EVERY MAN'S BATTLE
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Words & Music by Chad Cates, Steve Siler, & John Mandeville

The wave keeps coming at you
Sometimes it feels like you might drown
But it's a lie to believe
that there is no way out
Cause there's a Father who loves you
& he's throwing you a rope
There's such a hope in knowing
We're not in this alone

It's every man's battle
Let's fight this thing together
Live out in the open
And stand each other's ground
Confess our deepest secrets
Break our darkest habits
Hold every single thought captive
And turn this thing around
Together we can
Cause it's every man, every man's battle

It's a war that we'll keep winning
One temptation at a time
As we encourage one another
To redirect our eyes
We'll seek the road that's higher
with our minds and hearts
Vigilant and faithful
Brothers on our guard

CHORUS

Let's be a stand up generation
For all men yet to come
And live a Holy standard
Every father, every son

CHORUS © 2005 Silerland Music ASCAP (Administered by the Copyright Company) New Spring, A division of Zomba Enterprises, Inc. ASCAP Upper Cates Music ASCAP / Lifestyle of Worship BMI

FREE
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Words & Music by John Mandeville

I'm not fighting anymore
I stopped trying
Yeah I've burned all the ammunition that kept me at war

I'm not weary anymore
I've stopped trying
Trying to live up to expectations
That weren't even mine

I'm free
Finally free
Oh I'm free from the pain and confusion
Thought I'd never be
Yeah I'm free
So free
Made my way through the lies and delusion
To this sweet release

I'm free

I'm not tortured anymore
Got no secrets
I've come clean with the dark obsessions
That haunted my life

I'm not lonely anymore
I've stopped hiding
Yeah I've opened my heart to the passion
That burns in your eyes

CHORUS

And I can't explain
what you've done for me baby
with a love that dared to believe
with a love that really believes

CHORUS

TRAITOR
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Words & Music by Steve Siler & John Mandeville

I'm in church on Sunday morning
Got the family and the new SUV
Your co-worker and your neighbor
I'm exactly who you think I should be
But my eyes feast where none can see
On visual profanity

I'm a traitor
A betrayer
A double minded-man
I'm a liar
A decay-er of everything I stand for
A voyeur in the dark
An adulterer of the heart
I'm a traitor
A traitor

I committed to be faithful
To keep my passion only for her
Now I'm surfing while she's sleeping
Trusting that our bed is still pure
I've taken what was intimate
And carelessly polluted it

CHORUS

I feel like I'm drowning
Out of control
Like an addict who needs a fix
Selling my soul for the counterfeit high
In these pictures and pixels

God I want to pray to you
But it feels like you wouldn't want me to

CHORUS

© 2005 Silerland Music (Administered by the Copyright Company) ASCAP

ALL OF ME
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Words & Music by Kent Hooper, Scott Krippayne, & Steve Siler

No one's watching
Now I'll find out if you're real to me
Will I love you
Or give into something less in me
How long will mistakes keep rehearsing?
Jesus, I've taken liberties with your mercy

All of Me
I need to surrender all my favorite sins
Let you into places I have never let you in
I come clean
Lord take all of me

You know my hand
All the cards I never show the world
No more bluffing
I cast down these artifical pearls
Deeply, I know that's how I have hurt you
Completely, Starting now that's how I want to serve you

CHORUS

© 2001 BMG Songs /Above The Rim / Kent Hooper Music (admin. by ICG) / Word Music, Inc. / Fifty States Music

NEVER SHAKE HIS HAND
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Words & Music by Rick Altizer

Never shake his hand
Although he asks you please
Never shake his hand
Or you'll catch his disease
It's hard to gauge the power he commands
You can never shake his hand

Never shake his hand
In the loneliness of night
Never shake his hand
Although it feels so right
You must beware of the things that you demand
You can never shake his hand

Never shake his hand
You're no match for his grip
Never shake his hand
You can't give him the slip
It only takes one touch to understand
You can never shake his hand

Never shake his hand
You'll find he sticks to you
Never shake his hand
He's something like the flu
He's introduced as an honest man
He'll recommend a subtle change in plans
And then he'll leave you wasted in the sand
You can never shake his hand

© 1998 Broken Songs (A div. Of Killen Music) / Papa Goose Music

SOMEBODY'S DAUGHTER
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Words & Music by John Mandeville & Steve Siler

The moment she was born
Her mommy and daddy cried
Taken by the wonder of life
From Barbie dolls to ballet shoes
From roller skates to lipstick and rouge
She's become a lady overnight
Why do I see only flesh and look right past her heart
I try to tell myself I can't help what I feel - then I remember

She's somebody's daughter
Somebody's child
Somebody's pride and joy
Somebody loves her for who she is inside
She has a mother and father
She's somebody's daughter

You knit her together
Your cherished creation
Made her body a temple for the soul
Why can't I appreciate
The beauty that your hands have made
And maintain my self control
'Cause when I see only flesh you're looking at her heart
There is so much more to her than meets the eye - I need to remember

CHORUS

Heaven's own precious child
A person full of worth and dignity
When her beauty is defiled
I demean us both and fail to see

Shes somebody's daughter
Somebody's child
Somebody's pride and joy
Somebody loves her for who she is inside
She has a mother and father
She's somebody's daughter
She has a heavenly father
She's somebody's daughter

© 2005 Silerland Music (Administered by the Copyright Company) ASCAP / Lifestyle of Worship BMI